oblivious

anxiously attempting the impossible
convinced beyond all doubt
the treasure lay in wait
for your greedy hands
to grasp for yourself
oblivious to my will

i watched you as you stumbled
thinking everything was fine
always one step ahead
the outcome evident from the beginning
too bright for your own doll eyes
oblivious to the truth

as you approached the end
i offered my hand to catch you
ignored, you insisted you'd made it
knowing all the while
your task was too great to ever succeed
oblivious to all around you

this meant everything to you

lie, cheat, steal my love
for you it's academic
tell us both the opposite truths
self-serving victim of your own needs
depleted until the No Outlet sign
straightened you out with its impact

your aerial maneuver without adequate runway
sputtered as you barely cleared the treeline
low on fuel and energy inertia failed you
as the backwash of your actions
removed the veneer of thinly waxed wings
rendering you a spiraling wreck

attempted without the skill of timing or wit
this undertaking meant everything to you
to turn the table of control in your favor
like footprints in wet concrete
your momentum slowed with each step
until the true measure of your failure was revealed

Paper

long sleek strips of pulp
fashioned for pen or imprint
of pressured expression
meant for others
from the mind of a stranger

pressed and fashioned to comply
with either demand
dependent on the need at hand
paper, pulp, or meaning
each deserving of you

i reached for the pen
as the roll expired before me
leaving me only remnants
of space to fit
each syllable inside me

i left you as i found you
only different and filled
with expressions of words
only meant for you
written across the surface of your face

this night

tomorrow only knows
the answers we sought
as the hours passed
leaving us in the vapor
of this night

the wind pushed through us
chimes with no melody
for we pay no attention
to neither deed or action
of this night

i asked. you answered.
only once because nothing else was needed
we swayed back and forth
two as one without cause or worry
of this night

never really knowing

i saw a star
its name i can't recall
but the colour was clear
as the hue of the glow
and the crimson that shone
reflected off your face
despite the darkness
surrounding us

the glowing meld of gold and spectrum
drew me like no other
a constellation, a wish, a star
like no other but welcomed as home
its fire both warm and distant
glows today within me
never really knowing its name
though embraced as mine alone

across from me

brunette. beautiful.
dark and full of light
i loved you then
as i saw your eyes
brilliant and black
reflect me back to you

the curl of your smile
as you looked away
revealed all i needed to know
i turned. i saw. i spoke.
your glance became the stare
we hold today

each day my last

don't reach out for me
i've learned not to take a hand
the sting of this reality
bites into my skin
leaving nothing to grasp at all

a bitter heart with seeing eyes
i have become by my own accord
living each day as my last
as the sand which slips
through these far too calloused hands

once a sponge or succulent
now withering as each sun passes
turning this light to black
like the heavy earth left covering
this slab of marble i lie beneath