impossible

the red rose of spring
curled petals in brown
graced my touch today
with blood and pain

my grip tightened
as i held all that was within me out
for the strangers i call friends
to witness and embrace

the solitudes of joy
without existence
in this time of peril and hope
because i know no other avenue to share

the hurt and beauty it bestows
crushed deep in my hand
pressed long on my heart
hollow. red. flowing in nothing but dashed hopes

of tomorrows and todays
all encompassing in red and agony
crimson this beauty to the eye
and harbinger of my solitary walk

to this mound of soft earth
i will drop you upon
brown as your petals
home of my peace

sad as your truth
impossible to all but me to see
destroyed and dying
this smile on my face

a shadow
a myth
another day to breathe
this earth into my lungs

and die content
in your embrace of blood and sacrifice
as i sink
into the dark