valentine

you
lying in bed, middle of night
deleting my favorite shows
insomnia
releasing your indifference
to what you’ve willed us to become

me
asking myself, laying next to you
what happened to turn you so sour
insomnia
prone and awake beside you
too afraid to hear the spoken truth

us
alone together in the blue glow
of our interrupted dream state
insomnia
the remaining common ground
in our unfulfilled tragedy

Remember when you knew me

I swear there was a time
I knew your every thought
lying next to me
breathing

Expecting my chest,
your pillow
solitude
without concern

The dawn, irrelevant
another measure
of the time
wasted among the free

And then today

I hate that you hate me
covered in vines
together alone

Your kisses for others
stoke her hair
I told you it was fine

But words don’t help us
you promised
you lied

There was a time
I waited for you to choose
you did

The wine
an easy transition
from my collection

A cellar
built for you
and then today

Her solitude
enveloped by you
an opportunity

I told you so
you’re a natural
at my expense

You liar

and then there was the sea

timeless, I imagined you
on your way home
away from me
never looking back
towards the shore

standing alone, I waved for you
a solitary soul
awakening
to the sunless dawn
without you

a single wave struck my feet
signaling the end
of happiness
I had never known
cold and clear

a taste of salt upon my lip
knowing you were gone
and then a swell
not unlike the sea
between us

for you

your flower
once I plucked
a succulent

the dew weeping
between your
parted legs

awakening
a buried love
for you

i carried forth
your scent
upon me

and smiled
the wicked grin
of a lover

Sutures

the things that held us together
dissolved before our eyes
dehisced, we were exposed
shallow and unhealed
as the open wound we were

Azure

the sky, blue and white
crashes into me
like waves above my head
and I heard the sound
of cymbals

looking up, an Angel
staring back at me proclaimed -
this is the day The Lord has made
the sun after a storm
is all that I can promise